I have always been a writer: I have written diaries, journals, stories, poems, observations, essays and articles. My home is full of diaries and journals written over 20 years ago, half full diaries and lots more.
By profession, I am an advertising copywriter, so writing is something I do for a living. When I look at my writing graph, I realize I wrote a lot more for myself before I took on professional writing. Once it becomes a job, you just feel you don’t want to come home and do the same thing.
Life took over and I stopped writing
This became a gap of some five or six years when life took over, soon after I got married – I was writing very little. Most of my unfinished diaries are from that period. It was a tough time for me, I had had my first boy, my job was going through change as I needed something that would allow me Mommy time, and the stress of being a new mother was taking a toll on me. The last thing I wanted to do at the time was to write. I just didn’t have the time, or so I made myself believe.
It was years later, after my son started schooling and I got into some kind of a routine with better time management and a clear understanding that my life had changed forever that I began writing again.
Now I am writing again
While I am still not as regular as I would like to be with my daily journal writing, I do manage to do so at least a couple of times a week. As the habit has built, with me penning down all my thoughts, angst, worries and ideas in my journal, I have realized I am growing as an individual. When I read my jottings from a year ago, it is interesting to note the changes in my life, my responses to various occurrences and I can now catch and stop myself from reacting impulsively. This awareness, this observation has enabled me to truly respond to life instead of merely reacting to stuff.
How journal writing has helped me
This has meant fewer arguments with family and friends, fewer occasions that I feel someone was saying stuff just to hurt me; and even when an event unfolds, I am prepared to walk away from a conversation that I know is heading in the wrong direction.
These learnings, these insights have come to me through journal writing, making this a meaningful process for me. As this becomes easier, I also find space within my mind to create writing that is more creative and I now find it easier to write poems, short stories and essays once again.
My writing defines me
My learning from this experience has been that if you see yourself as a writer, make the time to get back to your writing. For most of us, it is what defines us as individuals, just as clothes define a fashionista and paintings define an artist. Get back to your passion, your craft and you will see small changes that will move your life to a whole new level.
Write, even if it is just for 10 minutes each day
If you are struggling with time, or content, don’t worry too much about it. Writing for just 10 minutes every day, or just expressing your opinion on some current affairs issue, will slowly but surely help you get back into the groove of writing. So don’t despair over the days you have not been writing, start off today and stick with the habit.
If you find this sharing meaningful, do let me know. If you are struggling with the writing habit, feel free to share your writing with me. Sometimes, just getting a feedback can be a good enough reason to get you writing. I would be happy to help out a fellow writer in anyway I can!
~ bharti athray